Fear Of Being Alone

Does anyone feel so awkward to walk alone on the road?I was a person who always wanted some company to go anywhere.My greatest fear probably was being alone. I used to keep myself home if I didn’t find any friend to go for a walk or shopping.

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These days I am alone most of the time.My high school friends have moved on to college.So its hard to be together with them.It is now that I have realized aloneness is sometimes good.It can be the time of self understanding,self expression and self growth.We are in such a fast paced society that we are always on a run.How rare is it that we find time for ourselves.Entirely to our own self.

Alone doesn’t mean “lonely”.It is like depending on the other person for “safety”.Security can never be accomplished from outer source.We can never feel safe when we ground our own thoughts and beliefs.No outer force can sooth inner discontent.The inner portrait of each person and their own creative spark and aliveness is often found in solitude.

The fear I used to have of being alone was so large.It was louder than the sound of Karatakou explosion.But now I am alone and this part of my life has been the greatest journey of my life.The discovery of what we like, what we feel, what we want and who we really are is liberation at its finest.My projected FEARs has now passed away,maybe not completely,But yes I am fine.I feel peace and contentment.Sometimes joy!

“Sometimes it takes darkness and the sweet confinement of your aloneness to learn that anything or anyone that does not bring you alive is too small for you.” David Whyte

Now you have made till here.Give yourself at least an hour,totally for your own self.Try to think of your interests, passions, talents, wishes, desires, dreams and feelings.Try to get intimate with your deep intimate being.The amazing you that was created for your own unique and special path, wants to talk to you. There is much to harvest in our own resources contained within. If only we listen.

Thank You for your time and efforts!!

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Keep Trying!!!

U got hit hard??
Keep Running.
Did you fail??
Did you try?
If u tried,You didn’t fail.
You are not a real failure.
Because,
You didn’t fail to try.

Do you feel like quitting?
Do you think low?
Think to the highest.
Thinking low is crime.

Do you fear?Fear of failing?
Please don’t.It is;
False Experiences Appearing Real
Keep going.
Hit the ground running!!
Take risks!!
The biggest risk is,
Not taking any risk.

Change your frustration into energy
Decide,Discern,Discipline.
Your success is on your way!!

 

Its time for Insurgency….

Hey, You corrupt crooks

I am on tenterhooks

I elucubrate to make both ends meet.

To chose u leader,I am schnook

 

Good health and education was pledged,

Opportunities and employment to be dredged,

Nepotic you are,you give “OURS” to “YOURS”

To Hard labor in foreign lands,youths are fled.

 

You take cheques and Make MPs

Reduce our salaries and give them fees.

We have seen enough of you and yours.

People,lets get united,Its time for Insurgency!!!!

Its time for insurgency!!!

Copyright: Nistha Bhandari

Worry…

Worrying is carrying tomorrow’s load with today’s strength- carrying two days at once. It is moving into tomorrow ahead of time. Worrying doesn’t empty tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties today of its strength.

Stormy night…

I was sitting by the window,feeling the cold breeze against my skin.It was really a good feeling;  be alone and yet feel surrounded.I was scrolling through my facebook when I heard GDDDNG..GDDDuuNNgg..

Scared of those thunderstorms I thought of getting outta my room and go to my mom’s.Just as i stepped outta my bed power was cut off.There was continuous lightning and thunderstorms.I was just standing still,afraid to move.And then I heard the downpour.Devastating one.

It was life taking.I really mean “lifetaking”.You might find it awkward how can a downpour take lives?But it took away lives of all the flowers I planted the previous day.I wanted  to see u grow and give beautiful flowers but that stupid downpour took away in your very first day.

I am sorry plants.I could not save you.

Kanyadan before Puberty….

Child marriage is formal marriage or informal union entered into by an individual before reaching the age of 18.Child marriage affect both girls and boys,but the overwhelming majority of those affected are girls most of whom are in poor socioeconomic conditions.

Child marriage in Nepal is a customary practice,that has been practiced for generations.Religions has endorsed it and society has ensured its stability.This practice has been underlying here for generations.We can find some historical writings which has influenced child marriage.

Manu Smriti 9.94 A man, aged thirty years, shall marry a maiden of twelve who pleases him, ora man of twenty-four a girl eight years of age; if (the performance of) his duties would (otherwise) be impeded, (he must marry) sooner.

Brahma Purana states that a girl should be given in marriage when she is only four years old.

”…As soon as a woman attains the age of puberty, she immediately becomes very much agitated by sexual desire. It is therefore the duty of the father to get his daughter married before she attains puberty…” A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada on Srimad Bhagavatam 4.25.42

Such rules imposed by holy leaders had their effect upon  religious people and practice of child marriage was decisively established. Kanyadan “The Gift Of Virgin” is said to be the act which earns parents credit for piety.

I tremble with fear when I see a girl in her teenage carrying a child in her back,one in her belly itself and one catching her hand.I fear the household chores she must do in her in laws house with her 7 month pregnant belly.I fear of her’s suffering from social isolation and domestic violence.I fear of her’s suffering from STD’s and cervical cancer.

Child marriage can have numerous adverse effects on overall well being of a girl who is mentally,psychologically,emotionally or physically not prepared for a marital life.Deprived of her childhood,lacking maturity and skill she needs to handle her personal,family,economic and social relationships,a young wife may develop fear and complexes that lasts her whole life.Inadequate socialization,discontinuation of education,great physiological and emotional damage due to repeated pregnancies devastates the girls.

Child marriage threaten the health and life of girls.Pregnant girls aged 15 to 19 are twice as likely to die in childbirth as women in their 20’s and girls under the age of 15 are 5 to 7 times more likely to die during childbirth.Teen pregnancy particularly below 15,increases obstetric fistula,since their smaller pelvises make them prone to obstructed labor.Girls giving birth before 15 have 88% risk of developing fistula which leaves its victim with urine or fecal incontinence that causes lifelong complications with infection and pain.

Child marriage’s impact violates a range of interconnected rights such as equality on grounds of sex and age,to receive highest attainable standard of health,to be free from violence,to be free from slavery,access to education,freedom of movement,reproductive rights and right to consensual marriage.